European Stars And Stripes (Newspaper) - April 19, 1985, Darmstadt, Hesse                                Page 18 the stars and stripes april columns comments Hopes for feeling terrific go up in smoke by Russell Baker Ive Felt Rotten Ever since i stopped smoking last of i Felt Rotten before i stopped but that was a different kind of Rotten from the kind 1 now the old Rotten feeling resulted from waking every morning with the taste of soldering inner tubes in the Mouth and worrying every evening that i might run out of air before reaching the top of the stairs where there was a chair into which i could collapse Long enough to regain the strength necessary to help me smoke some More 1 wanted to feel terrific and somehow i had gotten the idea that the Way to feel terrific again was to Stop has anybody Ever made this ridiculous claim the passion of americas smoke haters is such that fanatics among them May have Stop smoking and feel terrific just As certain people get so carried away by their love for human life that they set off Dyna mite in places frequented by human 1 can not swear that 1 Ever heard anybody say i am not talking now about the three months of fidgets caused by combat with the nicotine you expect what 1 did not expect was an eternal sometimes in the sometimes gravitating South and settling in the sometimes becoming so bored with itself that it adopted new appearing now As the philippine now As the whooping cough now As grand mothers homemade now As the Swine the ant smoke people never Tell you about having to live with a cold for the rest of your but i dont hold that against you can get used to having a cold All your just As you once got used to having a fire always burning under your the human body seems eager to grab whatever makes it feel even while whining about How badly it is being the i is that the human body is not intended to feel terrific after it has passed the age of 18 and will instinctively grasp at afflictions that Promise to make it feel what else can explain its loathsome craving for Cigar Gin and controlled substances in my i be Lieve the body was so unhappy about losing its old cigarette miseries that it latched on to the first fresh misery it could find and locked it up in the corporeal closet so it could never i remember barbershops before they became hairstyling and they were full of True life detective magazines in which jealous males held the women they loved in the same household Captivity in which my body had imprisoned this miserable when you spend every Day of the year coping with a cold you Are Apt not to notice right away that your Belt is becoming too Small for your i didst notice this until my trousers started after a few months they had shrunk so badly that 1 dreaded having to get out of there was talk in the family of bringing in a until i explained that if i got out of bed id have to put on and All my pants had shrunk so that they gave me a terrible pain in the of it want the pants it was Stop Ping smoking that had caused the apparently peo ple who Stop smoking slowly bloat up like i am told this is caused by increased but i dont believe my Case surely is caused by the recent acquisition of 10 pounds of cold germs my body took aboard after its cigarettes were Cut it makes you feel Rotten to have your Belt constantly struggling to garrote your the inevitable cure thus i found myself in the mounted on a bicycle without peddling on an idiots journey to i would Roll on the floor and perform calisthenic that had Defeated me even when i was Only 17 and feeling new York times Syndicate Reagan badly wants to hold Summit by Bernard Gwertzman Washington after seeming to avoid for years any direct Contact with soviet president Reagan now appears determined to hold some sort of meeting with Mikhail even if it produces no Tan Gible his interest in meeting the Kremlin chief has been evolving Over the last aides Ever since he decided in january 1984 to pursue a new policy of less confrontation with the soviet under pressure in his first term to ease tensions with the once publicly suggested a meeting in new York with the ailing Leonid Brezhnev in but that was not taken seriously at the As recently As last Reagan turned Down the Opportunity to meet with Gorbachev at the time of Konstantin Chernenko on the ground that nothing could be accomplished in such a Brief administration officials say Reagan wants to make his Mark in history by achieving significant arms control accords with the russians and with a new Leader in there is a fresh Opportunity to do others that having gotten his military rebuilding program up the he feels he can negotiate with the rus Slans from a position of whatever the his to sit Down with Gorbachev under virtually any circumstances conflicts with the declared wishes of Secretary of state George Shultz and White House chief of staff Donald both men believe that nothing is to be gained from what is characterized As a meeting Tor a meetings faced now with reagans determination to meet the soviet Shultz is embarking on a policy of trying to produce some modest agreements with out Side of arms Robert the presidents National Security summed up reagans views in a news Confer ence in Santa the president would Wel come an a or a with the soviet he he made a distinction be tween a presupposing some tangible a com that he said was unlikely to occur anytime and a which he said was Likely to occur this fall at the United in justifying just a Mcfarlane said that when a change occurs in one country it is worthwhile for the two leaders to for the purpose of getting to know each reagans evident interest in conferring with Gorba Chev seems to his aides from a conviction that for the first time in his presidency there is a healthy soviet one who is interested in Public diplomacy and apparently in travelling to the United states and other Western since Early 1984 Reagan has been much More involved in soviet american affairs than he was in his first three years in by Mcfarlane was also acknowledging that statements by blaming the United states for strained relations and trying to undermine nato Unity on missiles in did not hold out much Hope for any breakthroughs if there was to be an Early it would have to be without any expectations of significant Mcfarlane surprised Many in the state which had been taking the position in recent weeks that any meeting Between the soviet and american no matter How it is would inevitably cause so much anticipation that failure to produce Concrete results might set Back Regan had spoken in the same vein As who is a close associate of he said he was against just having meetings for meetings he we think it would be a big not Only for but for the rest of the if the two leaders were to meet and accomplish c 1985 new York times Syndicate today crossword by Eugene Sheffer across 1 fruit drink 4 Pisan or Pekoe 7 Border 12 Bel Bistu Schoen 13 our 14too 15 past 16 for one 18 comic Caesar 19 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