European Stars And Stripes (Newspaper) - April 18, 1987, Darmstadt, Hesse                                Saturday april 18, 1987 the stars and stripes Peg 11 Ann Landers dear Ann Landers this ii for heartache in Flor Ida Noie Mother took her own lire. Ii May not Case the pain but t Hope it will rid her of guilt and live her a belter undemanding of How a person can be a desperate tired and unable to Cope no nut Ter How much there ii to live Tor. Knowl suicidal thoughts have tormented me for Yean. I told my self 1 could never Hurt my family by tiling the easy Way out. It it Loch a elfish thing to do. However almost daily the thought persisted. I love children and was about to become grand Mother for the tint time. My daughter even invited me la go with her to the doctor when the had her Ultra sound. Ryhal a thrilling experience one week before the baby was due 1 calmly fixed myself a Gin and tonic and poured into Tho Palm of my hand 120 phenobarbital tablets 30 milligrams each this was about 2 ,. About 6 30 ., a neighbor who had never been 10 my door before slopped by. Somehow i heard the Knock i have no memory of there events and after falling Many times 1 managed to gel to the door. Hav ing heard Iho noise he Kepi talking me to the door and i id him in. He immediately called 911.1 had ingested All but about 30 of the pills. The rest were found on the floor. This far exceeded the lethal dose. It ii now four months later i go to a therapist three times a week and i am still suicidal. I am sorry for hurling those who love me. But have not been ate to say i am sorry for what i did. Stranger still j have not been Able to say thanks to the neighbor who saved my life. The Best 1 could do was apologize for putting him through the ordeal of finding me. My children Are very Loving and supportive helping in every Way but the happiness is temporary. When i hold my grandson in my arms the love for him flows through me and i feel 1 must live to watch him flourish and grow. A few Days later thoughts of self destruction overtake me. 1 shall keep fighting but deep Down i believe i will do it eventually and no one can save me. Oakland Calif. De Oakland thank you for a letter that nukes it Crystal Clear How Strong to mysterious the in Deal urge can be. I beg you to keep seeing be therapist and hold the Iho Clil of swing Jour grandson grow up. And when too feel in  urge to end it All remember Bow Navy times before you Felt that urge and hit Lom omm we always better. Dear Ann Landers i realize you Don t write an etiquette column but i m dying to know How you would Deal with this one. Von go into a fancy restaurant where the prices Are already higher than they should be and the waiter brings you a menu. Before you Start to order he or she begins to rattle off the  they All sound simply wonderful but nothing is said about the Price. You Don l want to look like you just fell off a turnip truck so you Don t ask How much anything costs. When the Bill comes it s a lot higher than if you had ordered from the menu. What s the solution to this Ore under water in ken1lworth, ill. Darken permit the waiter id go through hts song and dance to then order from the menu. Lot anoint Tow column tit Linda a Conw Yam Huml. Von an nil to ism Ait of the Sim and a pm to w211. Us. Fore writer plans political garbage platform of enough it enough. I am to Trad of Reading about How the government has stumbled from one embarrassing situation to the next. There must be a better Way the government in like an unguided missile. The budget is out of control. Foreign policy u out of control. The deficit is out of control and Congress was never in control. We Are our own wont enemy. I guess the old comic strip saying is True we have Mei the enemy and he i us. During the revolutionary War a smooth talking smart Guy said that was the time for All Good men to come to the Aid of their  sound familiar Well today we have a few to mooch walkers in our government but i am not convinced that they Are Good men or smart  one out of three is bad. If one out of three characteristic qualify an individual for Public office then i qualify. I am no smooth. 1 slurp my drinks and burp at the table. I have been told that 1 am crude rude and socially unacceptable. Well excuse me 1 am not smart. When it comes to brains i plead the 7up defense never had it never will. As a Little kid my father used to say that our family dog was smarter and could do More tricks than i could. I hated that dog. Anyway smart is probably relative. There Are rid of All you smart Guys. If you ask me i think Hal is a pretty smart plan. Can i Rescue the i a Branch to inched my Way toward the Cal. As i moved closer the cat moved farther away eventually 1 reached the cat but he had dug his claws into the Iree and would not let go. So i leaned Back and punched the cat that got him out of the Iree. Now that 1 have established myself As a candidate allow me to submit a proposal to you. I propose that we end the nuclear arms race by re placing All icbms with icbms intercontinental Gar Bage missiles. Minuteman missiles would be replaced by garbage Man missiles. Garbage is a natural resource. All countries Rich and poor have garbage it might seem logical to As sume that the Richer the country the More garbage it produces. The United states would Stilt be a superpower but i Jim not so sure that the soviet Union would be. It would probably be safer to autume however that the wealth of a country Only indicates the potential for garbage. There Are Many countries developed and underdeveloped with a higher garbage to land ratio than the United Stales has. Icbms would be cheaper than current missiles and not As destructive. Nuclear missiles would destroy the population and the buildings. Ecu Iron bombs would destroy the population but spare the buildings. Gar Bage missiles would spare the population and the buildings Bui would destroy your lunch and favorite fishing holes War is hell. There arc Many advantages to my proposal first it would reduce the defense budget. Let s face it garbage is free and plentiful. Second it would provide a needed lift to american foreign policy and seize the propaganda initiative from the soviet Union. Third it would reduce the Federal deficit. America would be in a Good position to Export More garbage and garbage related products trash bags push brooms Etc than it imports. Fourth president Reagan s strategic defense initiative could be replaced by the strategic garbage initiative. The technology for ski is available today and in would Only Cost a fraction or current ski estimates. The Soi is a major advantage of my proposal and therefore requires a greater explanation. My vision for ski would consist of huge floating garbage trucks capable of launching a series of refuse containers or trash bags at incoming enemy missiles. An effective defensive shield would protect american cities. If America wanted to take advantage of our current technological Edge Over the soviet Union we could build our defensive shield around floating trash compactors instead of garbage trucks. The inherent danger of course is that the soviet Union would escalate the garbage race with their own version of ski. Well enough Gutter talk. Now that i have let the cat out of the bag the democratic and Republican parties will probably attempt to clean up on my ideas. I Don l mind. My platform is garbage dirty and simple. I real ize that this is not a new idea. Political parties have been spouting garbage unofficially for Many Yean. Per haps it is Lime to admin it. Lloyd mites Shann cd Sheik Egypt Good news bad news in school report in reference to the recent article How the schools rank i was extremely pleased to see the above aver age scores by Dodds students in both the sats and the acts. It s a Good feeling to know our children Are receiving such a Fine education. Hats off to the excellent corps of teachers the department of defense has assembled in our school system. An alarming statistic in the article was the Overall graduation Rale in the . Public school by slept 70.fi percent with a Low of 54 percent in the District of Columbia. This is shocking in the world s most advanced nation u paints a Bleak picture for . Growth. Pen pals would a n run irl Vuu i wind. My know in play mtg a Hayball Gultig i Wing to Mac whig ind turning. I a. St. A Turbo Uttmi. Cio Donl Koroi Ocek tonal ship Mui 5003 rat 3s-Ymm Michw lid to a Okkie Kex i an pit my Hobb Toi i Chiper no. 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