European Stars And Stripes (Newspaper) - November 4, 1987, Darmstadt, Hesse                                Daily a Magazine heir inking 3r.ruth by Georgia Dullea new York times he  and the anal Sand Sal in facing Blank leather chairs there was. Of curio. N court gotttoibiu1, muttered Iho real or Rulh Westheimer. Us distinct irom fac Sminia personality i would never Iid on inc Couch " although she did allow her fool in size 4 Ferrar Jamo pumps 1o Rusl briefly on an Olomon. Her posture like her manner was Mashy formal during an hour Tong interview i i her anal is s Ollice by i a this in my Pri ale practice in something 13 beyond my competence. Go to a psychology or a pm chichi list and Here i was Cru Wurl on holding Back pain luf experiences not wanting to look Al them maybe because i was scared i would got so sad that i  t be ate to do the i Hirji needed to do As or Hurri Long before or Rulh she was Kasota Rulh Siegol a German jewish Rel Nice who came of age in a Swiss orphanage waiting in vain Lor her parents to escape the holocaust. She has spoken of this period in interviews bul never i any depth when her own children used to ask How it was to be to years old and without a Mother or lather she said i changed the  to Blechor who is 36 years old and a faculty member of the College of physicians and surgeons at Columbia University As Well As being on the staff of the William Alanson while ins i Hula of psychiatry welsheimer 59. Was a typical patient in terms of symptoms. Sha was having  he said not Only in recalling memories but also in talking Aboul  in addition he said Westheimer had nol come to terms Wilh her parents late after september 1941. When she stopped receiving their letters. Nor he added have some others he has interviewed Lor the Yale holocaust study i be seen people in their 70s, who despite firsthand testimony of whal happened maintain a kind of magical id a that maybe a relative survived the jargon Lor what a pal enl bongs to the psychoanalytic process is psychological baggage " Westheimer Lisl arrived Al the analyst s  literally carrying a Balleres  in Lido were stacks of faded Blue composition Hooks con Laming the Ojiri of Karotis Sicgel her parents Letitis and other memorial Ilia guided by Doc nor  is fluent in Gorman and hebrew she  Abc loss my again m those languages and Road Tho canes and Fetters untouched Lor half a Century most of those yes i. 5"li.od than  guilt she said  thai if 5he had it3, n Germany she could he. A ii. her Parent i or. Rutti Westheimer with her psychoanalyst or Marc Blechner "1 would never lie on the  the Guil is Gono. And in its place is an admiration for her parents and their sacrifice in sending her 1o solely she said. I would not have the courage to Send my own children away like  even As she spoke of grappling with the past she Stilt evinced ambivalence As he analyst Pul it she said she has not made a concerted Effort to learn when and where her parents died Dospil same evidence that they were sent to Auschwitz nor has she registered their names in the holocaust memorial in Israel although her daughter did so recently. She has tried o Block Cut the image of the Gas chamber and yet she acknowledged. When i see a Shower head or a ire sprinkler i can1 help thinking this is How it happened " welsheimer s autobiography Willen with Ben Pagoda. All in ,1 lifetime Warner books $17 95. Deals with some of the material uncovered during analysis the Book also answers inc question. What did 1 know about sex and when did i know Aboul it As a child in Frankler i. She know babies did not come from storks after peeking Mlo a marriage manual her parents kept hidden away at the orphanage she passed on the lads of life to other 10-year Olds Shin up1" the adults told her she went to he Roo Anri knocked on the boys  the window broke and she got spanked at 13, she whole in or Dary that a Friend. Else was told everything wrong Abdul menstruation she set else Slraight because i ,3.v Haw bad it is when one is Given wrong inform Ilion Ghoul these things " Othor diary engr cd Rev i 1 conf visions of  i -. No Call in the Zigni in no. Hollo. Or Rul wednesday. November 4. 1987 for Tompte she a Ole nobody is going to want me f am so Short and ugly to understands to and Nikci me but does he really 7" after the War she emigre cd to Israel where at 17. She first had sexual Intercourse on a starry night in a Haystack without contraception i am not Happy Aboul thai she a drilled bul i know much better now and so docs everyone who listens to my radio program " we thelmer s analysis look place during a series of sunday sessions some lasting four hours and did not Deal with her life alter the years in Israel. Her Only other psychotherapeutic experience was 25 years Arjo when a therapist agreed to half hour sessions at Hall Price because she talked fasl bul. She said i did t discuss my past in detail because it would have been too  she sighed and said l  Jill painful acc Iii in.  another therapist had warned thai looking ill old Cari would mean the lots of her pie do Vivoc " then glancing at Blechner. She said i Lair tonight  the interview hour a almost Over Wesl Herrer produced a Box of  . Lore off iru1 cellophane and Proll ered it to Blechner always she said on those sad sundays i brought chocolates for us to oat maybe so Mark  id not be so hard on me never mind in i believe in transference or not could have fallen in Lee nol have kno  it Plechner Miu d Ard i  l it a he . The stars and stripes ii Only was t in you. Mark and you Woi 1 .1 Cho hic "  i. ,. Tel the Page 13